random musings pt 2

in an effort to maintain sanity for whoever reads this, as well as out of my current laziness, i'll quickly (bullet point style) mention a variety of topics that have been on my mind lately..

- is it just me, or do any of you guys deal with the pride issue of being the first (either in general or in a specific group)? like when i'm the first to find a show (in my case shows like chuck, himym), or a movie (random/great korean movies), or a book (watchmen), or a band (too many to list), or, or a restaurant (kogi taco truck), it'll kill me when i tell people about it, and don't get the credit. but if i go the other way and don't tell people about it, they'll find out eventually, and that'll probably annoy me too. a similar "peeve" i guess, is when i know for a fact when i've told someone a fact, and they come back like a few days or even a week or two later, mention the fact offhand, and completely forget the source.

- i've realized more and more the paradoxical nature of my sociableness. in public, i'm pretty extroverted, cracking jokes, talking with people, having a good time, etc. however, i've realized that in private, or when i'm alone or back home or at my apartment, i'm completely the opposite. for me, i enjoy being alone. it gives me the comfort of not having to deal with anyone/anything, and just being left alone to think, read, listen to music, watch movies, etc on my own. it's extremely refreshing. in fact, whereas many people i know like hanging out, i would be just as good spending a friday night alone, watching movies/shows and chilling on my computer. i'm sure there are some technical psychological mumbo jumbo that would define my situation, but yeah, that's just how i feel. to wrap this thought up, what's really weird is that i can't remember the last time i felt lonely.

- it's official. natasha bedingfield's "pocketful of sunshine" is the most annoying song i've ever heard. i don't know what it is, the fact that i hear/see it everywhere like the casino commercial, the annoying melody, the annoying vocals, the annoying lyrics, or the annoying composition. if i were to choose between listening to this or beyonce/sasha vujacic fierce's "single ladies", i'd break a thermometer, drain the mercury into my ear canal, pop an arsenic pill and jump off a burning bridge on fire into a lake of hornets.

- it bugs me whenever i'm in a group/social setting in which i'm talking to people, and i'll notice one person in that setting/group whispering something to the person next to them. it's minorly related to a sense of uneasiness that they may be talking about me, but the major thing that bugs me is that it's not a very edifying habit. it's like, what can't you share out loud that you have to tell in secret? it always comes off to me as secretive, deceptive and even slanderous. readers -- correct me if i'm wrong.

- on the subject of peeves, i've come to realize i highly dislike naps. i don't like taking them myself, and i get annoyed when i see people taking them during the middle of the day. for me, i feel like it's such a waste of time, and that the 2-3 hours you spend sleeping could be WAY BETTER spent on something more fruitful. i just feel like some people sleep their days away and let them go to waste.

- thrice is already writing their new stuff, and rumor is that they maybe ready to record stuff earlier than expected. at the very least, they're probably going to have at least a song or two ready for bamboozle.

- and what's with the new craze of twitter? thrice started using twitter to give in-studio updates through it, and kogi taco truck started using it too. and all i'm aware that it does is give you moment by moment updates. are people today really that impatient? can't we just stick with using a date-by-date calendar?

- i would really like to expand on this later, but it's just so weird (but natural at the same time) how the bulk of our social interactions, especially at church or KCM, occur through insulting/making fun of one another, especially when it comes to relations with the opposite sex. i don't know if it's a korean-american phenomenon, and the fact that my bringing it up is so weird shows the extent to which this kind of interactions has seamlessly become a part of our natural behavior, so to speak. (wow, i kind of sounded like freud). i know personally i mean well, and most of the time, so does the other person, but is it really edifying and a pleasing fellowship when we get down to it?

- so there was a three-person shooting on adams, a block over from where i live. i realized i've been living at USC too long when i noticed that the fact that i would be locked out of city park for 2+ hours by the LAPD disturbed me more than the fact that there was a gunman on the loose that apparently shot up 3 people (whose statuses i still don't know) all a mere block or so away from my apartment complex. has USC and the endless DPS notification emails made me calloused? i just hope this callousness doesn't lull me into complacency that could lead me to being unprepared in the face of possible robbing/mugging/etc in the future.



- BH